I miss you (an update)

I wrote this for you a year and a half ago… some things have changed since then… some things haven't. Let's see where we are…

I miss you — 77rpm, 10/22/2021

✅ I miss your smile, even though I saw it a couple days ago. — Still seeing it every week or so… not often enough, but I'll give this one a check.

❌ I miss your eyes, even though I saw them then, too. — Ok so I guess I've been spending more time with you lately, it's true… but the last time we really got to just stare into each other's eyes was Halloween… Far, far too long ago…

✅ / ❌ I miss your touch, even though I've never felt it. — Technically not true anymore… that one night at the campout, telling that story… you touched my arms, multiple times… then a few weeks later you were poking me on the shoulder at the show, to point things out to me, or tell me jokes… sigh Also so long ago…

✅ / ❌ I miss your love, even though it's never been mine. — Pretty sure I'm receiving this now, even if it remains to be from afar… But I still long to feel it up close and personal, every single day…

✅ I miss fall nights by the campfire with you, even though that's never happened. — Now I'm just wondering when the next time I'll get to do this will be… the weather's getting nicer, love… Do I really have to wait for the next campout (and omg that I get to say THAT is… amazing, stunning, I never… sigh, extra ✅ just for that…)

❌ I miss your lips, even though they aren't mine to kiss. — still dream of them every single night of my life…

❌ I miss long conversations on the phone with you, even though I've only dreamed them. — We've had a few longer texting conversations now… I got to point you to that beautiful statue of you, even… but talking to you? Hearing your voice? Still just the stuff of my dreams, sadly…

❌ I miss the smell of your shampoo, even though I've only chanced to smell it once upon an evening breeze. — That night is still the last time I was lucky enough to smell your hair…

❌ / ✅ I miss being in your orbit, even though we circle different suns. — We've been seeing each other more, spending more time in each other's presence, it's true… Largely your doing, which fills my heart like you wouldn't believe… but I've had a few, too. Mine are further in the future… what can I say, I plan long term. I plan long term… for you. But I can't wait, gods, especially for Labor Day… Even still… it's not enough, still only a fraction of how much I long to be near you…

❌ I miss you, even though you're only just outside of arm's reach. — I still miss you, every single day… Even the days I get to see you…

❌ I miss you. — Seriously… even if we end up together, I can't see how I could possibly ever have you in my life as much as I need.

Not bad, I suppose. But let's make more checkmarks, love. Let's check them all off.

Yours, always.
♒️